Ok, enough with the movie quotes. It has been another one of those "bottom of the wave" days. I loathe these days. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to be around anyone, I don't want to do anything...I just.want.to.be.alone. My brain is in overdrive and I can't shut it off. 5 more days will mark 6 months without Tyler. 6 months. 1/2 a year. Twice as long as I carried him after his diagnosis. Sooo long, yet never enough.
I have no idea why I was attempting this blog...I am such a jumbled mess, I don't even know what I'm thinking. *sigh* Just yesterday I was thinking, "I'm feeling really good. I hope this lasts awhile longer!" D